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[11 Oct 2011|01:06am] |
hey all,
hope everyone is enjoying "Renegade" and into everything we released today. hard to believe we wrote those songs so long ago and are just now getting them out there. i was ready to post them the week they were all laid down at the studio. so much has happened, changed, been good and bad, over the last year or two... and this is a nice big exhale. the calm after the storm, which sometimes is pretty hard to come by.
now that we are seeing these songs off for you to take care of and keep as your own, we are now beginning a whole new journey. the writing process is always a weird time for me... i doubt myself, listen to past records a lot to reassure myself, i isolate myself to make sure i'm staying focused... like i said, it can be pretty strange. however, this time i'm gonna try and break that mold i made for myself. jeremy, taylor, and i owe it to ourselves to really take us to a new place and just enjoy the whole thing without any stresses or awkward tensions. you guys know as well as we do, that it's been a while since we've made a record that was just plain fun to make without any hangups.
so here goes. we've got some songs underway but it's still the beginning.
on another completely different note, i really hope that the community can be a positive place. i am a person who has strong opinions... i don't always voice them because i really don't think it's my place as an artist to be one of the loud mouths.... but what i'm trying to say is that, i understand people having opinions and wanting to voice them. there's nothing wrong with not agreeing with everyone. what bugs me is that this place, this community, is a place for fans/family of our band to stop by and leave feeling better, not worse. no.. of course i don't think the world is all roses and daises... but come on, you can get your fill of negativity just about anywhere else. so please, feel free to say you don't like a song or you just aren't into the way my voice sounds on this or that... but i am asking you to do it with purpose and not just because you don't have anything else better to say. it's really disheartening to see people here use our original online community as a sounding board for spiteful, bitterness.
anyway, i'm not your mom....
time to go write....
hayley
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| didn't y'all hear? |
[29 Jun 2011|07:26pm] |
i'm pregnant again... SIKE
ughhh. second hand embarrassment for the whole twitter world and coming back here today to be with people who understand... *sniff sniff*
anyways, what's up everybody? good news! i'm feeling a heck of a lot better today than i have in a good while. still a little weary but i'll take that. been staying at my moms pretty much all week. i haven't done this since i was 18! needless to say, i've been a huge baby and totally taken advantage of the whole thing. and now, there's only a couple days before we're back out there with you guys. honestly, that's all the cure i need! gonna fix me right up. whew, can't wait!
well, this post isn't really to catch you up on much. of course, i missed the entire 4 days of practice so i can't say much about that other than i know the guys were stoked at how everything sounded. even though i wasn't there to top it off with my siqq voxxx. jokes... they don't need me anyhow... they always sound too good!
i just wanna know what you guys are up to, what you're into. new season of true blood? toddlers and tiaras? (vomit) what do you guys think about the new Taking Back Sunday record? just fill me in! What's the 411? Tell me everything! What's the hot gossip? What's the hot jams?
- momma h
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[21 Jun 2011|09:38pm] |
i took twitter off my phone the other day and it felt like killing a giant angry spider that was in my garage blocking me from getting into my car... which was amazing cause the real life spider that was actually in my garage was really extremely frightening.. and not killing it in real life was like a total failure. run on sentence, i know. my point is, it felt good to take it off my phone. liberation! besides not everything i do is even all that interesting.
so with all the extra time, i've really just been hanging out with my family, watching the casey anthony trial, trying to find vegetarian and/or vegan food in franklin, sitting on my butt... OH! and we made a music video ( <<- i think that's tweet worthy )
we flew to LA on sunday and shot the whole thing yesterday. from the buttcrack of dawn until we nearly died. didn't mind it! we had a blast. of course, we left with battle scars. i can't do anything without getting my stupid knees bruised. at the end of every tour i have like 50 bruises on my legs! i don't understand. anyways, it was so so awesome working with shane again... a very different experience from any of the other videos we've done with him. i won't go into all the reasons why in case it would give anything away. i'm just really excited to see it all finished.
my head is killlling me. i guess i need sleep? or maybe a popsicle.
rehearsals start this weekend... that much closer to getting out there and seeing you guys. ughhhh can't make time move fast enough!
ok, goodnight!
-h
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[23 May 2011|03:35pm] |
it's sort of unbelievable how much can happen between these LJ posts...
i don't say that in a negative way really. i'm just only starting to realize the time that's passed now that i sit down to write you guys.
with all the off time and the sitting around at home i've really just felt afraid to be still. it's hard to go from moving at a million miles a minute to stomping on the brakes. and now -- THANK GOD -- we're getting ready to get a little busier. you might've heard but there will be a new song on the way pretty soon and that means, we'll have some work to do! not to mention, rehearsals for summer shows will be here before i know it. i mean, i really have to keep reminding myself... it's only a few months off! it should be a good thing right? balls!
i've been in LA for quite some time now.. while i've been out here, i've seen some great shows (A Day To Remember, The Swellers, Zach Galifianakis -- ugh i can't spell that! -- Best Coast, Jon Brion, The Watkins Family Hour, and I think more but I can't remember right now), went on a date at LACMA to see the history of fashion exhibit, and i haven't eaten meat in months! who knows how long that will last though.... I mean, I can't really complain. it's been a lot of fun. you know what i think my problem is though? i think i have growing pains.
i always come back to this... to growing and changing and how it feels when the whole world already "knows" exactly who you are. they know your next step before you take it. they know your every reason for every thing. and hey, this is the life i wanted! honestly, i love the workload (how i miss it right now), the company (you guys), all the different places, and most of all the freedom to create. all i can say is, with all that's on it's way to us right now... and i really believe in it... i guess i feel like a different version of me is ready going to be taking it on. i mean, damn, i've had enough time right? and yes, i said it before, but i think the guys are there too. i don't think i'm alone when i talk about how some screw has been tightening... or loosening.. in my head. maybe even some of you are there too? there is never a bad time to start over, in my opinion.
with all that being said.. i'm SO ready for new music to get out there. we've been talking about it since february. you've sort of heard one of the songs but i'm ready to hear what you think about more of them. i'm ready to see you guys face to face at shows. ready to care about what i look like a little (you know, quit looking like a scrub just cause i know i'm off)... which i guess means i can let myself go shopping.. yes? thank you.
anyways, what was the point of all of this? did you get it? i'm so excited for summer. let's talk more soon. sooner than it took us to talk last time.
love you guys a lot,
hayley
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posted this just now on my tumblr: "Went to the Jeremy Scott x adidas party last night. I’d like to quickly point out (then avert your eyes elsewhere) the fact that I have NEVER been to Coachella yet, as of last night, I’ve been to one of the after-parties. This is so backwards. I should be ashamed.
Anyways, I just wanted to say that I met some really cool people last night. People who were all so different from each other. People who were excited to get out and let go. It was nice to just be surrounded by complete strangers for the night. Sometimes, I think it’s good to do something out of your typical routine. I don’t usually leave the house at 10pm to drive 2 hours and stay out til 4am. Maybe I just like my bed too much? What I’m trying to say is… there are a million-bajillion people on this planet (that’s just an estimation) and we’ll never ALL know each other well. Most of us won’t meet at all. But when we step outside our inner circle and start leaving footprints in other places we have a lot more chances to make impact, to learn something brand new, to find out who we really are by seeing a part of us in a total stranger.
Don’t judge. Don’t stay inside all the time. Get out and let somebody know who you are."
but i wanted to go just the tiniest bit further here with you guys...
my experience last night has so much to do with the song "Careful". there is a big world out there and it's made up of a ton of human beings living and breathing their way through every day. most of us, lost and confused and weird. but who cares? we have very little time to be judging and pointing and "protecting" ourselves just because we are afraid of people or experiences that are unfamiliar. the last thing i'm trying to say is that we should cut loose and run rampid in the streets in the name of "looove". what i'm saying is, the person that i'm standing behind in line at starbucks has a story just like i'm do... and given the right moment, i could probably learn a thing or two from them. it's easy to stay inside, shut your door, and say you're fine with the life you have.. but try something different every once in a while just so you can say you took the risk of making someone feel loved.
edit; OH! i forgot to sign off - how rude
love you guys a lot,
hayley
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[05 Apr 2011|07:17pm] |
Hey everybody
today, let's dive into the discussion of sexuality! yeah yeah, i wanna talk about the cosmo cover. it's a little more than a big deal to me. and you know what? i'm really excited about it. to the general public, cosmo magazine is either a) a woman's obsession or b) a woman's demise -- honestly, either of the two options equal out to be the same damn thing! the media clearly has our attention. it's easy to let all the images of all these godlike looking women whisper to us how we think we're supposed to look. it's like "here look at my BOOBS! don't you wish you had these?" "more guys will like you if you do it THIS WAY!" "get this figure" blah blah blah spend all your time, energy, and money on becoming the world's idea of ''sexy"... and you know what? it's never gonna change. as much as i tell myself i don't care and i wear whatever i want... there will always be those moments when i'm at the check out line at target and i see some gorgeous person on the cover of any ol rag... and i'm like "ugh, is that how it's gotta be!?" only to realize that... next month, that girl on the cover is gonna be me.
WHAT A HYPOCRITE RIGHT?!?!
noooo. here's the thing. my #1 goal when the band began was to make myself invisible. not only did i not want to be the focal point, i wanted to be UNSEEN! and honestly, it never made a difference. i've turned down a lot of magazine covers. i specifically remember turning down Blender mag when i turned 19. and you know what? no one ever knew. it never made people focus on me any less. and it never mattered. so this time i'm taking a different approach. all 3 of us in Paramore have our own roles. and finally i will accept mine. i'm going to be okay with being a "powerful female". and if that's what it is... i'm going to use that role to make a difference.
here's the plan. here's my course of action. i WILL be myself. i WILL grow up. and i most definitely WILL find the time in my own life to be SEXY if i feel like it. who wrote the rules? who said that a girl that lives in this same tshirt and jeans nearly every day won't wanna wear pumps and a short skirt tomorrow? the heart that's underneath the clothes is still the same. because to me, it's not about using sex as a weapon. it's about how i feel. somedays i straight up feel like wearing sweats. other days, more confident days.. i'm like... DUDE WHO NEEDS CLOTHES!? ok well, i'm not that extreme but hopefully you see my point. if you are a girl, i think you'll understand all of these words just fine. you know those mornings you get out of the shower and you're drying your hair in your underwearsss and you realize you finally don't care that you have that scar on your leg? or that your skin is so pale that sometimes in bad light you can see your veins? ... or when your skin keeps breaking out and you're like "today, i simply do not give a f***!" those are the liberated moments that i try to hold on to. and i'm hoping by seeing my crazy mug on a magazine cover... some girl who's having a not particularly liberated day will think to herself that the MAY cover looks just a little different than the usual cosmo cover and hopefully they can even be inspired. no, i don't think i'm some kind of saving grace that's going to change the magazine world and the lies that we believe in the headlines every day. but i do know that i NEVER ever thought of myself as conventionally beautiful nor sexy. and only just recently did i ever even begin to accept how my looks differ from other people's whom i admire. i'm hoping that the more a magazine will take a chance on a girl like me, the more a girl will have a frickin chance in hell to be UNIQUE, powerful, strong in her weaknesses, confident in her flaws. because that's who i'm trying to become.
sexy is whatever you want it to be. don't let cosmo tell you. don't let vogue tell you. even your boyfriend or your best friends. the point is, it's up to you. i'm gonna make up my own version as i go.
and for the record, i really was hoping one of the headlines would be "69 ways to 69" but i guess it was a no go. honestly, i don't think they could come up with that many. thank you guys once again for being a part of our family. love every one of ya.
hayley
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[22 Mar 2011|03:02pm] |
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HI!
we're back inside the studio. literally, inside of it. and so far, it couldn't be any better! day #2 and we're nearly finished tracking the whole 1st song musically... tonight it'll be my turn to crank out some SICK VOXXXXX. i'm just a little excited. like clockwork, my allergies are ridiculous right now and my vocal cords are being total jerks. it's alright though cause i fed them some watermelon juice and kale earlier. i could tell that made 'em smile. ew, look at me talking about my insides like they're people. it's like when guys name their weiners. just no.
well, i just figured i'd give you guys an update on where we're at with the songs, life in general, and also tell you how amazing the movie Paul is. (it's amazing). (kristen wiig is so funny). that's really all i have to say about Paul. as far as music goes, we're hoping to record 3 songs while we're out here in California. the original plan was to record just 2 but seeing as though we're moving pretty quickly, we may get luckier than that. i guess we'll let you know when we figure it out! being out here is totally inspiring though. i remember when we showed up for the first time 2 years ago. within the first hour of actually pulling up to Rob's we were already working on "Careful". this place just has an electricity for us. and honestly, all it is is a studio inside of a garage. i mean, it's a nice garage but... hey.
i guess the only thing we can say that won't have you completely stoked out of your skull is that we are rethinking the idea of releasing these songs in EP form. for a few reasons which, of course, will be explained. we've obviously been through a hell of a lot in the past however many months it's been... so it probably won't come as any surprise to you when i say that i've written a lot of lyrics having to do with the whole situation. one you've already heard, ("in the mourning") and quite a few others, some of which would never be paramore songs but were more just my way of venting and getting over everything. the 2nd song we're recording and the 3rd one that we're hoping to get done also have the same subject matter. and really, we just don't want to put out a full product that sounds like a concept record about yet another difficult period in our bands life. it really is time to move on. with that being said, we want to give you all some new music. honestly, we want to give ourselves some new music too. geeeezzzz. so we're working out how exactly to release everything... but so far it just seems like we spoke a little too soon about the whole EP thing. sorry :/ we were kind of excited. you will still be getting new songs though! and we think you guys are gonna really like them.
hopefully the whole thing makes sense. if not, i guess i could try to explain it in non-hayley-rambling-forever form, which would probably go like this: shit happens. if we put out another full product about our band woes then this will just keep going on forever and ever. after we put out the few songs that we're recording, we never want to talk about it again. not in interviews, not in songs, nothing.
phew. that felt good!
now that we're past the serious business can i just say that i'm SO freaking proud of the dudes. taylor has clearly had a lot on his plate getting ready for this little series of songs we're recording. killing the drums, writing great guitar parts; etc. jeremy has this insane bass tone that he and riley (bass tech to the stars, also of Conditions fame) have been working on. working together has been good, you know? i feel inspired and motivated by all the changes we've gone through. and the friendships between the 3 of us feel like they've been dusted off, new again. i'm proud of what i've written lyrically - even though it's not something i want to harp on forever. i feel like it's the stepping stone, though, to wherever it is that we're going next. that in itself is so exciting it literally hurts. the year ahead of us couldn't possibly be anything less than incredible.
and lastly, i think i just need to brace myself. from here and now until whatever really happens next for us... i can feel that we're on the brink of so much growth. for myself, personally, i just know i'm gonna look back a year from now and realize all that i've learned. but that's enough about me, do you feel it too?
think it's time to eat. i can hear the guys getting excited about something, so it's either food, girls, or someone farted.
L O L
love you guys so much,
hayley
ps, didn't proofread this so i'm sorry if there's a ton of mistakes. (besides the usual non-capitalization thing)
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[02 Mar 2011|10:50am] |
hey yall... just woke up and i've watched every rerun of every american reality tv show with spanish subtitles that bogota has to offer. (celebrity apprentice is on now. Cyndi Lauper is fierce). it'd probably be nice to get outta the hotel but we're kinda surrounded. not sure that we'd actually get to see anything. it's bittersweet, you know? i'd rather have fans everywhere be stoked that we came to their city to see them than not care at all. i mean, sure, i wanna go do touristy things in every city but the best experiences are the shows.. and we wouldn't have a show without people to play for. so i'll take that compromise!
we only have 3 more shows left before we head back home. WHAT? this tour has gone by extremely fast. it's been amazing to come back to some of these places for the second time and extremely overwhelming to get the responses we've gotten. especially in all the cities we've never played before. we met one guy the other night in Peru, named Roger, who joined our fan club in Feb. 2007. that's pretty much when we started the fan club!! he waited all that time just to meet us and see us play a show... i can't even tell you how incredible that feels... and when he walked up to us at Meet & Greet with these big tears in his eyes, I almost lost it. he asked to come up and sing with us and OF COURSE we said yes.
check that shiz out here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9ZpX6pwreo&feature=related
i almost cried again just watching this. hahah i'm such a baby. he broke my heart in the best way. i've just never seen anyone get so completely lost in our music the way he did on stage. it was humbling and real. we all felt really grateful to meet him. so if you're reading this Roger, thank you!
in other completely unrelated news, i've been trying to do my Pure Barre dvd on tour. not as consistently as i'd like but... well, enough to know i'm doing it. my ass is literally burning en fuego right now. i couldn't really recommend this work out to dudes - cause it could be super awkward if you're not into ballet or pushing your pelvis forward all the time - but i will say that if you're looking for a good workout that is low impact but with quick results, get on this stuff! and then on the opposite end of that spectrum... i would like teleport myself to LA and get raw chocolate pie from Native Foods. it shouldn't even be possible how good it is. somehow it is.
and back on Paramore planet we have some rad stuff planned for the rest of the year. i actually just amazed myself with the whole Paramore planet thing. and not in a good way. who am i? anyways, as everything unfolds and becomes more official, we will let you guys know. hope you'll be as stoked as we are.
enjoy your day!! talk later
hayley
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[01 Mar 2011|10:39pm] |
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i was srsly hoping to post today but got so caught up in work stuff we had to do. (which, by the way, was pretty exciting!) so, look out for something in the next day or so. love you guys. hope you're all doing swell!
<3
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ps, save any questions/bigcomments for the real post! i'm headin to bed :)
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[15 Feb 2011|01:45pm] |
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what a weekend THAT was. damn, it never fails to amaze me when i look up and all around me and realize that we are standing on a red carpet. isn't that sort of every little girl's dream at least at some point in their life? even if just for a second, you wanna know what it would be like... i mean, i always did. it's only made even more ridiculous and amazing by the fact that i get to do this stuff with my friends. the guys and i had a blast. let's not even try and talk about presenting "best rock album" cause i'm pretty sure i nearly pissed my pink tou tou. this years grammy's were, without a doubt, the best we've ever been a part of. and i'll follow that up by saying, whatever is going on with the 3 of us - however this is working out - it's something new. it's unexplainable. and new! i don't know how else to say it without sounding like i'm forcing it and being a downright d-bag. something just clicked and whatever that was, i'm so freaking incredible grateful for it.
we really made the best of our entire weekend. did a brand new photoshoot - i mean how much longer could you guys crop and re-edit old photos? must have been a little more than awkward too, right? well, lindsey byrnes knocked it out of the park. we had a blast getting all dressed up (i might have had too much fun... but you're used to it by now) and sooner than later, some of those pics will be up on the interwebz for us all to gawk at. we hung out a lot with our label folk. both Fueled By Ramen AND Atlantic folk, if any of the haters are wondering! we even went to the label's after party and held down a whole corner in which we danced the night away and onlookers were all "wtf" til they came over and got down with us. the best part is that we actually planned out a lot of our 2011. i know everyone has been hoping for an EP and while we don't want to confirm anything 100% due to the fact that well, we just don't wanna confirm it... i can say that we do have enough songs *in the works* for one and we will be recording some of them after we get back from Brasil :) thumbs up? yes? no? mmm yes.
just seems like someone opened up all the windows and let all the air back in. wish you all could have been right there with us over the weekend. hanging out with us and feeling our insanely good vibes, haha! we're ready to give back to you guys for all the love we've felt from you over the past couple of months. heck, for the past 7 years! there's something new happening here and it's definitely good.
LOVE
hayleyball
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[04 Feb 2011|12:47am] |
tomorrow is our "1st day back" --- band practice will rule. i just know it. i'm feeling really good about it the closer it gets.
it may have been a tough month or so, as we've beaten into the ground a thousand gazillion times, but finally - and hopefully as of tomorrow - i am ready to start something new. man, i'm sick of being a tired grump. it's easy to get that way in january, i suppose. but honestly, if not for most of you giving us even the slightest bit of encouragement, i probably would've fallen into a legit case of depression. so thank you. another mountain to climb and we're getting there, right?
also, i know i didn't answer as many questions as i sort of said i would in the last post. i go back every now and then and read your responses. honestly, they are all amazing. can you believe it's been like 5 or 6 years of this community? we're actually growing up together. i can't imagine having had that conversation in the beginning of this. i'm so honored. can't promise but i can say that i will try to go back and reply a little more.
this post really has no point other than to say that at the end of it i'm actually ready to move forward.
love you all so much,
hayley
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[27 Jan 2011|02:18am] |
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can't believe i'm gonna post about faith.
but it's all that's been on my mind lately. and i think, just with my blog and with a few people here, it's come up enough times to dedicate a little more time to. i'll start by saying this... i never thought it could get any harder to live in the south, be a Christian, and do what we do. but lately, it has. and i'll finish starting by saying another thing... this post is about as personal as i could possibly get with all of you. to me, this subject matter is like ripping off a bandaid... or super gluing your lips together and then tearing them apart. (jeremy had a friend do that once, how bloody does that sound?)
disclaimer: i realize that only a few of you here share the same faith as me, so you'll have to read this all like it's my totally private diary. like i'm writing it just for my own eyes. and also, i am not using this entry as a way to make you "see the light" and start believing whatever I do. in fact, this is almost the opposite.
so here are the basics: Christians are supposed to love everyone. we are supposed to be a clear representation of God's heart for humankind. without quoting scripture and getting myself into a storm, it's easy to see when reading the Bible - particularly the New Testament - that God's desire for his creation is love. that's a broad statement but hopefully you follow. sure bad things happen, life happens... but in the end, there's grace. there's love. and at least to me, that's God.
so if Jesus walked the earth, showing grace to everyone, hanging out with "sinners" and even being condemned for it, all in the name of love...what's so hard to understand that as Christians, we should strive to do the same? i mean, duh, as a human being living amongst other human beings, i'm not expecting perfection.. but that's just the point. Jesus didn't expect perfection from us so why do we expect it from one another? why is it that Christians are known for being the exact opposite of how it was written that Jesus lived his life? why are we known as a bunch of hypocrites? i'm getting tired of the representation we've got out there. seems like the only Christians that speak up are the crazies. and i guess that's why i'm so not into talking about all of this all the time. i don't wanna be one more name you can add to that list.
the million dollar question that i'm wrestling with lately is this: what's the difference between someone who says they're a Christian but shows no love and someone who has nothing to do with God but shows love? who would you rather be around? ... that's what i thought!
ugh, so i know i'm rambling and rambling. unfortunately i don't think i have a total point for all of this. i'm not expecting anyone to have an epiphany about what i've typed up. just so angry lately at people who make believing in God look like hate. figured that you guys would understand because i bet you all might have your own stories of condemnation and harsh judgement. i call those stories "playing god moments" - only call them that to myself of course to avoid seeming ridiculously narcissistic! but now you know, so if you have a "playing god moment", please share it if you can.
and you know, maybe my point is that whether or not it goes down in history, i just want to be able to be known not for being "a Christian" but for being someone that tried to be real with people. sure, i'm not happy all the time. that's not what having faith is about anyways. i just want to know that i loved people right. or as well as i could. i really believe with everything in me God would actually be pleased with just that. and before i end this, i just want to say that i hope none of this comes off as self righteous. that would bum me out so hard cause that's exactly what i'm trying to speak out against.
okay, so i'm going to quote one verse -
1 Corinthians 13:13 "Three things remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
thanks for reading this one. i'm sure it was confusing - and i didn't even proofread :/
love,
hayley
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| small talk |
[09 Jan 2011|01:05pm] |
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hey guys,
i haven't wanted to come back here for a long time. so much has been going on with us personally that it's felt wrong to try and come in here and make it all even more complicated by putting too many feelings into it. this was always a place where i could come and vent or try to motivate myself by reading what you have to say. cause most of you are far more inspiring than even you are ever going to know. but to be quite honest, there are some seasons in life where you don't even want to feel inspired. it's just sad and it feels almost better that way. then, on the other hand, there are some people here who have no intention of being supportive. there are some of you who'd rather search until you find something you can pull apart. and in a time where our band is seeming most vulnerable, you flourish. i'm not really sure anymore if this is a place where our band is supported or just speculated upon. the funny part is, this is the place - the group of people - who i talk about most when i talk to friends about Paramore. or when someone asks me about our fans. 99.9% of the time, you guys are the ones that i think about when i think about playing shows, or traveling the world. maybe it's just because some of you have been with us since day #1. and even though some of the negative stuff here makes me wanna throw a child over a waterfall (ok, that's harsh), the positive stuff USUALLY trumps all of that. i'm not saying i don't have bad days. i do let some of you here get to me. but hey, that's pretty human, i think.
okay, so here we are.
what a world we live in... i mean, damn! i thought for a second i was going to have to hang myself in the public square downtown! kidding. duh. but really, have you all seen Easy A? first of all, what a great movie. but second, so relatable. not in a sense that we are all lying about losing our v-cards and then making money off of it and somehow having fake chlamydia. no, i mostly mean the fact that we ALL know how quickly rumors can spread. i feel so sorry for our generation when i watch movies like ferris bueller's day off - a payphone in the school?! really?! come on. with the internet, the whole world is just playing one huge game of telephone. i've STILL got folks asking me why Paramore is breaking up. it's sort of laughable at this point. i can't just keep answering those questions, right? you can't prove hardly anything to anyone. you just have to show them. actions > words. it will always be that way.
but speaking of us not going anywhere. i need to say thank you. for all three of us. taylor and jeremy and i literally can't believe how much support we've gotten. you can't imagine how motivating it is. we have so many things to look forward to this year. some of which we can't even hint at cause it would totally jinx it. but we can talk about writing, right? (yes)
we've got 2 songs in the works thus far! they are rockin. taylor is doing such an awesome job with the demos. jeremy and i have yet to go over and see his home studio... i think i'm gonna do that later today. it's just crazy that we are already getting into this process. i'm not sure if this is the exact process that will lead us to make a record but it will certain lead us to releasing songs in some way. in either case, it's bringing all of us closer together. i've never felt like this in our band before. that's weird and sad to be honest about; and it's all i want to say about that.
the three of us are trying to be creative about how we can get involved more with you guys. sort of a means of "putting down roots" all over again. with that, we want to be more interactive with the fan club - especially since there are not a whole lot of tour dates booked. but that's just one of the things we'd like to "fix". again, actions > words. we have a lot to do!
hope this wasn't too sappy, or too anything. it's been a while since i've been here, i might be a little rusty. i can't promise that i'll come in all the time like i used to. but i do promise that we notice the people here who are still trying to make this place somewhere that people can come in and feel supported. we appreciate you.
miss the road and seeing your faces in person.
love
Hayley
ps. oh! there is something that i did want to clear up that never got cleared up before. the "statement letter" posted on .net from the band, was actually written by all of us. over the phone. it wasn't just me. phew! that feels good to say.
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[24 Aug 2010|04:34pm] |
it's been long enough...
lordy, where do i start!? miss you guys.
the honda civic tour has been one of the coolest tours that we've ever put together. not only because of the size of the crowds but the fact that we have been able to pull off a bigger show, with all the fancy production (never thought it'd happen!) as well as having a line up that is so diverse, i feel like there's a band for anyone and everyone who comes out to the show. we've been having a blast.
right now, we have about a week off of it. and i'm sitting on my living room floor gawking at the TV and everything that is blowing my mind on the new season of True Blood. total vampire anarchy. that's what's going down in my house today! if i could count all the times i've heard "f*** authority" in the last couple hours i'd be so punk rock, i'd hurt. but anyways, this season is intense. i can barely keep up! between this and dexter coming out in a month my spare time is all booked and busy. which shows are you into right now? anything i should check out? (ps, chad is buying the box set of Lost and i'm going to start that sometime soon!)
the weather at home is so perfect right now. i feel really lucky to come home to a place that is so beautiful. sometimes it's sad to leave and go out on the road, missing everything that happens here - but honestly, it's nice to miss the things that you love once in a while. so you never forget to appreciate it. hopefully, i can say this without sounding like a preacher but... remember to enjoy EVERYTHING. the things that feel good, the things that hurt, rejection, acceptance.. it's all going to make you better. stronger. and more like yourself. every once in a while i get a reminder of how much i'm okay with just being me. i know that sounds ridiculous. cause i'm in this band. we're lucky. we got successful. but who i am is still this nerdy, silly, flamethrower of a person. and it took me 20 years to see that and get it and love it. now, that i'm home for a few days, seeing some friends and spending some good time alone... with myself... i got one of those reminders:
found one of my old journals. from right around the time we were heading out on tour with NFG in the UK early 2008. i started reading it and couldn't help but cry a little bit. cause that person was really confused. and very lost. and as it went on, the person behind the pen seemed to get a little bit stronger.. that part felt good. it was the reminder that i needed that right now i'm as strong as ever. there really isn't a point to telling you all of this. except maybe i want to thank you. cause you are a constant reminder. that i'm not as lost as i once was.
okay, Hoyt from True Blood is cute and distracting. so i'm going to finish watching this episode. hopefully i'll be back soon! but definitely follow my tumblr if you want more consistent updates. it's easier to post pictures and what not from the road. ok. Hoyt. gotta run!
love you guys. SEE YOU AT READING AND LEEDS!
hayley
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[25 Jul 2010|03:50pm] |
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Hey guys. Hayley here..
I'm sitting in the front lounge of the bus. Being on voicerest is never fun but it's an almost constant chore when I'm on the road. Maybe I'm getting too old to headbang? I get the most intense "bangovers" (shhh, i know how that sounds).. the first few days of tour and it causes my throat to get a lot hoarser than it would be otherwise. So yeah, needless to say, this off day is pretty event-less. However, typing feels great! So, here I am!
2 days into the biggest US tour we've ever done. My head is spinning. So much hard work is paid off every time I look up and see everyone smiling, singing, and having a good time. We want this show to be fun. And while, we're still getting used to the set-list and the sore necks, it's already everything we could've hoped for. Make sure to hit up Brandon (@branchesbro) on Twitter and let him know what you think of all the videos that we made for the show.
(holy capslock, i just realized i have been writing this like an essay... back to the norm).
there are 2 videos, in particular, that we shot while we were home in franklin only about a week and a half ago. the one for "Decode" and the one for "Looking Up". there is a small cameo by my younger sister, Erica, in the "Decode" video. she plays a menacing shadow person. that sounds ridiculous... but i don't know what else to call her role hahah. anyways, Brandon pulled off those two videos - as well as a few others - extremely well. and in such a short amount of time.
another thing... the clothes. my friend Jen (@bunnyjenny) and I designed some stuff for the guys and I to wear. so much fun. for whatever reason, i really enjoy girl-scout stuff.. one of the first goodwill purchases i ever made was a toddler sized girl-scout dress that i wore as a shirt. there's a pic of it somewhere from 2006 when i brought it on tour with me. so yeah, i still have that sort of obsession.. (mostly with the cookies) and wanted to go with that type of "punk rock girl scout" sort of style for this tour. and since the color scheme was very similar to what the guys like to wear anyways, we just made clothes for everybody! this is my first go-round with the whole designing/costume making biznass. i enjoyed the process very much.
still figuring out a way to sew my mic pack into the dress i made without messing with the style of it. we'll get there. i'm just stoked that we actually made some skin-tight pants and they are durable... but stretchy enough that my booty isn't hanging out the back when i jump. that's so embarrassing. ugh, i could go on about clothes for days. sorry to bore you all. i'm gonna post a few close up "making of" pics of all the pieces i'll be wearing on stage over at my tumblr and if you're interested, you can check it all out. >> (yelyahwilliams.tumblr.com)
oh, and i've also just started blogging for MTV.com. i think it's just for the duration of the tour... but go and check it out and comment me a lot so i look like a real important journalist.
i really hope that jeremy is actually sleeping and not dead. because it's like 3:45. i'm gonna go shake him and tell him our bus is on fire.
thanks again if you've already gotten tickets to the shows. can't wait to see you out there. let us know each night what you thought of it...
ps, brandon from delaware is a great singer.
hayley
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[24 Jun 2010|11:43am] |
it's funny how exactly what i wrote about in my last entry happened.... well, because of my last entry.
what's more important: that we're all over the place or that some tiny shred of truth is illuminated? nah, i don't care too much right now.
but this is what i want to get across today... i hope everyone here knows how thankful we are for the SPIN cover. regardless of what MTV.com or any gossip column online is reporting. it reads like this "hayley is pissed at SPIN!" but it couldn't be any more wrong. my point was not to slash that article in particular or say that that opportunity wasn't worth it. because let me tell you, it was. everything i said had more to do with the fact that journalists IN GENERAL write more about the little things, that - to us - don't matter when you compare them to the messages in our music. we are beyond stoked that SPIN covered our band and i got to be on the cover. we've dreamed of this for years! i still stand firm in the fact that i don't really think many journalist will ever "get" what our band does on the road... but then again, why do i all the sudden care if people "get" me or not?
the only people that really matter to us are you guys.
so let's hear what you think!
-what did you think of the SPIN article?
-of Paramore articles in general?
-and what would YOU want to see written about us?
HAYLEY
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[17 Jun 2010|04:28pm] |
long time coming, this post is....... was.... why am i talking like yoda now?
so, i'm really excited to be writing here. not really sure what i'm going to write about yet but that's what makes it exciting. i guess i can start with, it's been a wild month, to say the least. "life is a daring adventure or nothing at all". is there really more to say about that than that? ok, well one more thing... human beings are no less respectable when they are at their most vulnerable. and that's why i try to have faith in people.
right now, it's about 12:30am - we landed here in Hamburg, Germany about 10 hours ago. all i've done is sleep, watch movies and "glaze" my hair. i'm trying not to dye it at all this summer besides right before the honda civic tour. i like the way the colors fade and how strung out i start to look with my hair turning all sorts of greenish yellow. it's even better when i don't wear any make-up out. what a sight. anyways, i'm tired and at the same time completely restless. and in, what some people would call, a "desperate need" for a shower. and what's most exciting is that my face wash spilled out into the rest of my toiletry bag. there's still a little left though.
on the flight over, i read half of a new book i've started called Wonderland Avenue. it's by Danny Sugerman, in case you're interested, who happens to be my voice doctors' brother. NEATO! the author of this book not only met and hung around The Doors as a young kid around the age of 13 ... but by the time he was out of his teens he was already managing them AND Iggy Pop. (if you aren't aware of these artists, get to googling). so yeah, couldn't put that book down until finally i had to... cause me and jeremy wanted to watch Shutter Island on the plane tv's. that's right, folks, business class seats have an assortment of movies available to you on little personal tv's. what a bunch of snobs we must be! by the time we were done with that movie we realized we still weren't tired so we watched Fantastic Mr. Fox (directed by Wes Anderson, an absolute genius)... and then as jeremy fell asleep i proceeded to doodle in my journal and listen to Nirvana's 'Incesticide', then Mumford and Sons' 'Sigh No More'. it was a good flight. clearly, i got a lot of things accomplished.
again, i'm still just sitting here in my hotel room letting the orange glaze sit in my hair until i finally give in to a shower. i didn't even have enough orange left to cover my full head, so just get over it when you see me and i look like a hot mess.
maybe now is a good place and time to state my opinion on our being everywhere at the same time. seems like we've got just about every magazine covered this month, people are playing our songs and i'm singing on B.o.B's song and it's just crazy all the time. i do love it... it's a lot of fun to work hard and see your work all around you. yet at the same time, there are still large number of people that i don't think will ever get it. the SPIN article (you know, the cover one) that was just printed about us doesn't really seem to say anything ABOUT us as a band. and it seems that in most cases writers simply enjoy looking at us and exclaiming - like they've discovered something huge - "THEY'RE YOUNG!" or of course there's always, "THEY'RE CHRISTIANS"... or "THEY DON'T SHOOT UP IN THE BACK OF THE BUS!" what is this the 80's? is it really that sensational that we aren't the second coming of Motley Crue? does our music suggest that we should be acting otherwise? listen, i'm not trying to sit here and wreck the writer from SPIN. i'm sure it's hard to get a handle on any band within the amount of time given to capture "our story". maybe reading articles about us just gets a little monotonous, that's all. oh and i'm not actually friends with McLovin or Miley. awkward turtle.
and on a slightly different tip, it's my opinion that anyone who is coming onto our band looking for controversy is completely missing the point. the point isn't in the intent of controversy, the point is that there is no way around it. as people, aren't we all bursting at the seams with conflict and controversy? the point of our music is that there are human hearts in it. because anyone knows that eventually, someone will find something on you. if you don't do drugs, you probably have another addiction. even innocent. we could stop looking for the wrongs and realize that they're inevitable on the way to something more meaningful. i'm not totally preaching here. talking to myself as well, in case you wondered. who knows? maybe i really am just bored with giving music journalists the benefit of the doubt. like they're really gonna let people know what we would want to tell them. yet still, i want to have faith in people. and anyways, what WOULD we want to tell people if we had that much space to write about ourselves? it would probably end up just the same. does it ever bug you guys? do you ever feel like some people are just missing it?
when you come to a show do you feel the same thing that i feel when i'm on that stage? i mean, i know you're not standing on the stage... but surely you can feel the same energy that i'm feeling, to some degree. it's so much more powerful than all the trivial nonsense that people chalk our band up to be. it means something great and it feels empowering. it's the grace of knowing that we can all totally suck and be a little messed up and then stand in a room with thousands of other people who are exactly the same way, no matter how dressed up they look on the outside, and we can be broken all the same.
man, what have i gone and spouted off about now? sorry for such a long winded, self-serving type of post.
i'm ready to wash this crap out of my hair and try to sleep til the show tomorrow.
we are actually sharing the stage with The Get Up Kids, Hot Water Music and Dropkick Murphy's tomorrow. should be a good one!
<3 hayley
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[11 Jun 2010|06:00pm] |
gonna come back soon and post.
leave me some questions or somethin! i'll be back soon :)
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[24 Apr 2010|10:30pm] |
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Which do you do?
and does it offend you when someone else doesn't do what you do?
i've been thinking a lot about how everyone in our band shares the same faith... but what if we didn't?
the best part of being in a band, to me, is meeting anyone and everyone we can just because of the fact that those people and i share a deep love for music. you don't go to a show because you think someone in the band is hot. you don't go because they always wear this cool, awesome outfit, or have the right hair. those things are part of what makes up the whole picture of the music... but those things wouldn't compel you to spend your hard earned money on a ticket to spend a night watching those clothes or that hair move around for a little while. music resonates with everyone, which is why we call it the "universal language". and every day i thank God that i'm a part of that language. that i have the ability to use that language to hopefully offer something, or anything, to all these people that i otherwise would have absolutely no connection to whatsoever.
over the past 5 or 6 years, i've met all kinds of people. people who love the same God as me. people who hate him. people who don't understand him. people who don't want to. people who are mad at him, sad at him, hurt because of someone else that believes in him. and you know what i've realized about all these different people? that i freaking love them all. the best gift that you can give yourself is an open mind. i realize, you don't just give it to yourself. it's something that is either learned, forced, or it just happens... ? i don't really know where i'm going with that... but what i'm saying is, right now, i know that i am who i am today because i have watched and listened to people all over this world share their stories with me. whether it was in conversation, over livejournal, in a letter or a note, or whether they didn't even know that i heard about it. if there is anything that i'm grateful for as much as my love for music, it's a passion for people.
i know i've said it before but you are all awesome. and rule. and can be anything you want to be. just remember to enjoy the process of being where you are while you are getting to where you want to be. something i am trying out, myself. and always keep an open mind.
- wow, i didn't expect to say all that. i really came here to ask for your prayers, thoughts, wishes, crossed fingers... anything that you believe... for my throat. i got sick just before this tour but i'm not about to back down and postpone anything again. i know i can get through tonight. (2nd Grad Night at Disney) but really what matters to me is the next couple of weeks. i'm so ready for an amazing tour. and i'm not too bad off right now. just asking for your prayers. or again, whatever you believe in. need my health back, 100%
lastly, thanks for helping make this a place where people in the community can come in and make these sort of posts... myself included.
love you guys, see you on tour!
hayey
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